Wishcasting....Thursday???

I looked up the assignment yesterday and jotted the fill-in-the-blank sentence on a sticky note to think about for a while.  Meanwhile I received the news that a friend at the Day Job has had a VSHE (very serious health event) and even if she makes it will be unlikely to recover well enough to return to work.  Friend is far too young for such a thing to happen!

This of course has our entire office in a stare-down with the concept of our mortality.  My wishcast, therefore, in honor of Friend, is:

I, pink, wish to give myself permission to do what I need to do to get healthy!  signed, pink <3

More about what that means later -- I'm supposed to be getting dressed to go to Day Job right now.

Changing Changes

The first assignment I'm catching up on was to do something different, notice how it feels, see what happens, and report back.

Flipping back through my planner/success recording journal, here are a few adventures I see:

I did a WishCasting Wednesday journal entry.  The question was "What do you wish to awaken?"  I wrote "I want to awaken my passion and creativity.  Bouncing off today's gift of uniqueness (I had drawn one of the gift slips left over from my map from the bowl and glued it onto the day's page.) -- awakening my passion and creativity will help me continue to uncover my uniqueness, dig it out of the rubble, polish it up, and let it shine."  I had forgotten I wrote that when I chose my celebration gift, but more on that later.

I made a deal with myself that I'm allowed to watch Clean House (my new television show addiction) IF I declutter while I watch.  Imagining what Niecy would say about my "foolishness" has been quite motivating  :)

From Groundhog Day, in my "Adventures" section of my notebook -- "what a radical notion!  The latest AweManac newsletter was in my email this morning.  One post titled 'Renegade Journal Writer' was confirmation of a blasphemous thought I had at about 1:30 this morning and made a whole stadium full of lightbulbs go on for me. 

"What did Jill suggest?  That the Morning Pages Police won't come and take me away if I don't follow the rules precisely.

"What was my 1:30 idea?  I gave up on Morning Pages because I don't have enough time for a full three pages between the time the alarm goes off and the time I have to start my day.  Suggest setting the alarm earlier than 5 am and I'll bite off your earlobe.  I'm frequently awake for awhile in the middle of the night though, and decided to try Middle of the Night Pages.  And -- even worse -- not considering it a tragedy if I happen not to wake up and do them.

"And after reading Jill's thoughts and the comments about how the whining that Morning Pages seem to inspire for a lot of us just isn't productive, I'm thinking I'll combine this with the idea I saw a week or so ago on a blog that I (predictably) cannot find again -- journaling my dream life, in exquisite detail, as if it is happening.  I really wish I could find that, but maybe I'm not supposed to -- so I can't follow those instructions too closely."

How has that gone?  Welllll......I woke up once and worked on it, but I've been sleeping through the night since.  THAT'S a welcome change, I can tell you!

*Sighs*

I'm running a bit behind on blog posts (obviously), and I'm not entirely sure why.  Yes, work has been crazy, but we also spent a few days snowed in.  For some reason, I've been resisting posting the next thing I intended to scan.

One of the things I love about the way I did the map at the beginning is that it allowed me to see the connections between my goals.  For quite some time I've been trying to figure out what the first domino is -- the thing that I could do to cause a positive chain reaction through my life.  With my big goals on one page, I think I found it.

The first domino, the key to everything, is SPACE.  My home, my office, my life, and my brain need a serious declutter.

More to come, but I want to get this posted before I chicken out again.  Why is this harder than the map?